I just wanted to say a few random things [at the bottom] and let everyone know that know there is now a forum on my website and a couple other features. Check out my most recent updates to know exactly what changed, or just look around: Ashira's Notebook.
Random End Art: Gypsy Tigress. I just thought the picture was pretty enough to share
Random Music of the Moment: Stop the Bleeding. Let's Shed Some Light. and a bit of Mozart while I'm at it... I'm in the mood for ballroom dancing.
Random End Comment: I got the Pokemon SoulSilver game and pre-ordered White version. I 'cited X3
Sunday, February 27, 2011
Tuesday, February 8, 2011
Character Survey: Ryshin
So I went to this website and found this crazy Character Survey that I could not resist taking X3 This survey is for my website mascot, Ryshin. Maybe taking this survey will inspire a story idea for her XD
Oh, and just so you know, it's taken from Ryshin's perspective...if it says "you" or "I"then it refers to Ryshin. Just figured I'd clear that up before it came into question.
Oh as a BTW: Anyone who reads the whole thing...KUDOS. You deserve a cookie.
Oh, and just so you know, it's taken from Ryshin's perspective...if it says "you" or "I"then it refers to Ryshin. Just figured I'd clear that up before it came into question.
Oh as a BTW: Anyone who reads the whole thing...KUDOS. You deserve a cookie.
CHARACTER SURVEY: RYSHIN
Introductory Questions
The basic questions - just enough for a quick character sketch.
The basic questions - just enough for a quick character sketch.
1) Give a two or three word description of yourself.
Hungry, Crazy, and Evilly-Cute.
2) Do you have any nicknames, street names, titles, or aliases?
A nickname: Shi. It's not used to often, though.
3) What's your full birth name?
Ryshin, which means song. That's all lolz
4) Where do you live?
The fantasy universe, Lunias, on planet Zeronium. I don't live too close to the Lunias gang, but I do live in a forest on the edge of Konkato. It's called "Raa'nea'k Mea" or Trees of Malice.
5) Why do you live there?
Because it was where I was born and it's familiar to me. I like it.
6) What is your citizenship status?
O.o Hobo?
7) What is your most obvious blessing or strength?
My ability to eat things whole.
8) What do you perceive as your greatest strength?
My ability to transform and therefore deceive.
9) What is your most obvious flaw or weakness?
Gluttony XD
10) What do you perceive as your greatest weakness?
My physical strength
11) Was there any event or cause to cause these weaknesses?
No, not really. I just use magical abilities to gain what I want, and the thrill of the hunt just isn't for me, so I've never had much need for physical strength.
12) What would you like to be remembered for after your death?
Hmmm...Ashira's Notebook? I'm not really sure. I suppose I'd just like to be remembered whenever I die :3
13) What kind of threat do you present to the public?
The fact that I can eat 4 average-sized human men whole in one bite, not less, seems kinda threatening to me O.o
14) If your features were to be destroyed beyond recognition, is there any other way of identifying your body?
My staff would be next to me, no doubt. If that were to be stolen or destroyed, however, it would be my stomach...if there are half-digested cake remains within it, then it is most likely me.
15) How much is a pint of mead or ale?
What does this tell about me? O.o How much human things I drink? I do not drink human drinks...I only eat human desserts!
16) As a player, if you could, what advice would you give? Speak as if he/she were sitting right here in front of you. Use proper tone so they might heed your advice.
As a player of a game, or a player as in relationships? Games I can do, relationships I have no interest in.
Our people never formed a nation or even tribe of our own. We're typically loners. We travel plenty, abandon our young before they get to an age where they can remember us, and never formed a set place we came from. We descended from the Tea'r'naavss [wolf-cats] though, who come from the eastern Rylaan plains.
2) What are its people like?
Cruel and lonely, typically. We don't usually take well to strangers unless it is mating season.
3) Are you aware of its history?
Some. And that's only because I've once wandered into a village and asked a domesticated Tea'raa about where our people originated and he gave me the information I gave in the 1st question, as well as a tad bit more.
4) Are you patriotic or a social outcast?
I suppose I'm both, seeing as my people naturally are social outcasts X3
5) What is your opinion of home?
n/a
6) Where is your home town?
I have none. I just live in a den I've created for myself in the Raa'nea'k Mea
7) What is your home town's name?
n/a
8) What was the area like and how did it affect you?
Pretending this isn't referring to a town and is referring to my den...when I first moved there it was dirt and now there's a hole. It gave me shelter from the rain and enemies, a place to sleep, and overall a place I could call my own. It's saved my life from angry other demons before, and I like spending time there, though a human would probably find it very uncomfortable and dank.
9) Did you witness any historical events?
I may or may not have. It doesn't really matter much to me. The only ones that keep record of any history are united or civilized species or those who just personally wish to keep records of their own. I'm not one of either, so I haven't paid much attention.
10) If so, how did that event impact you?
n/a
11) Are your real motivations different from what you tell others?
Depends on who I'm talking to. I can be quite deceptive if I so desire.
-If so, how might such secrets be revealed?
You'd be eaten before you got the chance to find out :3
-How far would you go to keep such secrets from being revealed?
I'd eat you?
-What would you do if the truth became known?
I'd eat you! I already said this!
-What do you fear would occur if the truth became known?
Less filling meals O.o
12) Are you particularly graced (or cursed) with particular traits or skills?
The power of deception has gotten me many a meal.
-If so, were these a result of your past?
No, they're a survival skill.
-How have these affected your life so far?
By keeping me alive O.o
-Did you affect you in your chosen profession?
I have no profession, I'm simply surviving.
14) What about your race, growing up were you in the majority or a minority?
Minority X3
-How were you treated by other nearby races?
Fear. I either ate them/their kind, or I made a point to them to stay off my territory.
-Were you persecuted for your race?
I don't know about the whole of my kind, but me personally? No.
-Did this impact your outlook in any way?
n/a
-Did it affect your personality?
n/a
-How do you feel about other races?
Their only purpose is food, otherwise they are mere obstacles that need to be gone around or destroyed.
-Do you have any justification from your past experience for holding such views?
I tried to make friends as a very young demon and their either attempted to kill me and/or eat me, or they shooed me away and treated me as nothing but an annoyance. The only polite ones are in civilized societies, but I prefer to stay away from mass amounts of such people. I like being on my own a lot more.
14) Were there any traumatic experiences in your early years (death of a family member, abandonment, orphaned at an early age, etc.)?
I'd like to think waking up without a mother would have been devastating to me, but I don't remember it happening so I wouldn't know. Besides that, I've faced no real traumas. I've really just been on my own.
15) Briefly describe a defining moment in your childhood and how it influenced your life.
I remember when I was picking berries by the riverside and I saw a HUGE bear-like demon attacking this small little rabbit out of spite on the other side of the river. The rabbit must have done something to anger the bear, because the bear was just furious. I got a tad closer and began to watch. From there, it didn't take long for the bear to smash the little rabbit, so I went to take a look-see. I took a sniff and finding the smell fairly good, I took a bite, and from there I've been a mostly carnivorous omnivore.
16) What was childhood like for you?
Lonely and boring, to be brutally honest.
17) Was it calm and peaceful or turbulent and traumatic?
From what I remember of it, it was mostly peaceful with random moments of action. The action is well exaggerated in my memories, however, since I was so young. If I were to mention any of them, they'd be as boring as "I hunted my prey all through the forest and found it boring, then came up with the fantastic idea of using magic and proceeded to build a staff."
18) Did you have any childhood friends?
Me, myself, and I, really. I did used to play with a red-tailed fox child for a while before their mother decided I was an unsuitable friend and took her away.
-If so, who and where are they now?
I do not recall her name, but if I heard it I could tell you that's right. I don't know where she is now, though.
-Are you still close to them or have you grown apart?
If I met up with her again, we'd probably begin where we left off and quickly grow close, but because I have no idea of her location...well that puts a damper on our relationship X3
19) What stupid things did you do when you were younger?
I still do them now X3 I play with my food, practice magic, and like to get myself lost and find my way back to my den again. Once I got myself lost for a week straight before I came home to my den. Good thing I came home when I did too, for the next day a raccoon-squirrel demon came and attempted to make my territory it's own.
20) Which toys from your childhood have you kept?
My staff is the only thing I've kept from my childhood, and it's hardly a toy... it is quite fun, however, so I suppose under certain circumstances it would be a "toy" hehe
-What do they mean to you?
I don't think I could live without my staff. It means a lot to me, for starters, made my my hand and very strong and special. I use it for hunts, since I am not physically strong enough to hunt down and kill prey on my own. I have the speed - not the strength - to kill my now usual prey.
-If you didn't keep any, why not?
Because I have no need for mindless nick-nacks filling up my home when I have better things to concern myself with, such as survival.
-What did you do to them all?
Either ate them, practiced my magic on them, or threw them in the river.
21) Do you have any deep, dark secrets in the past that may come back to haunt you?
If I said anything, the wouldn't be secrets now, would they?
22) What conflicts might arise from your past?
If I ever came across my mother in the future, she'd probably try to kill me for being such an abomination.
23) Are you who you claim to be?
Depends on if I'm trying to eat your or not ;3
24) Do you have any sort of criminal record?
If I lived in a civilized society, I'd be considered a brutal killer, probably.
25) How do you view the heroes/legends of your country?
n/a
No clue.
2) Were you raised by them?
It is custom to leave your young to fend for themselves after a certain amount of months or so, so no, just like virtually all others of my kind.
3) If not, then why didn't they and who did raise you?
Myself. The rest of this question is answered within the previous one.
4) What is your father's full name?
n/a
5) What is your mother's full name?
n/a
6) What did your parents and/or foster parents do for a living?
Survive, probably.
7) What was their standing in the community?
n/a
8) Did your family stay in one area or move around a lot?
They probably moved because there are no others of my kind in this general area.
9) How did you get along with your parents?
Probably bad seeing as they left me...or maybe normal, since it's customary.
10) How would your parents describe you?
Abomination. It's how pretty much all of us view children as.
11) Do you have any siblings?
Not that I'm aware of, though I could somewhere far off.
12) If so how many and what were their names?
n/a
13) What was your birth position in the family?
I don't know.
14) How did you get along with each of your siblings?
n/a
15) What was your family life like?
Not a clue.
16) List all current knowledge of family locations, spouses, children, birth dates, schooling, and any important incidents that only you and they might remember.
n/a
17) Are any or all of your family still alive?
I'm not sure.
18) Draw out your family tree, including living and dead relatives
I don't know any besides myself.
19) Do you love or hate one member of the family in particular?
I don't really have anything for or against anyone in my family that I'm aware of, meaning my parents. They left me before I got the chance to judge them, and they left me because it is custom of our kind. Unless I have a child I have no right to judge that decision.
20)Is any member of the family special to you in any way (perhaps as a confidant, mentor, or arch-rival)?
No.
21) Are they any black (or white) sheep in the family (including you)?
I suppose that domesticated Tea'raa I came upon a while back, but who's to say he's even a part of my family?
-If so, who are they and how did they "gain" the position?
He's domesticated and not wild?
-If this person is not you, then how do you feel about them?
I don't quite care. It's his life, not mine, therefore I don't have much of a place to judge.
22) Do you have a notorious or celebrated ancestors?
Not really, no. I'd probably have heard about them by now if there was.
-If so, what did this person do to become famous or infamous?
n/a
-What do people assume about you once your ancestry is revealed?
Perhaps this could also mean "what do people assume about you one they learn your parents left you and your kind's history was revealed to you by a complete stranger?" If it can also be interpreted that way: They typically assume that I am unhappy with my position in life, though I quite enjoy things this way. More time for me.
23) Have you begun your own family?
Ha, no, not at all.
-If not, do you ever want to have a family of your own someday?
I don't plan on it for a long while if ever.
-If so, with who or what type of person?
n/a
24) What type of person would be your ideal mate?
Someone who won't abandon me despite the passing of mating season, and someone who doesn't mind that that's strange for our kind.
-What would you be willing to do to protect such a person?
Anything reasonable in the war of love. But I've yet to come across anyone like this who has even the least desire to be with me.
-Is there anything you wouldn't do to protect such a person and if so, what?
Anything absolutely ridiculously out there, such as put up with him hurting me, etc. I am not the type of woman to let someone walk all over me.
-Would anything change your mind on this issue and if so, what?
Maybe being exposed to love, finding a better understanding of this odd emotion, and realizing why some do as they do better. I don't know what my future holds for me.
PERSONAL RELATIONSHIPS
1) Do you have any close friends?
I did once, but I don't anymore.
-If so, who and what are they like?
Well she used to be really funny. We'd pull pranks together all the time, and she promised me once that she'd teach me how to ride a horse in both human-like and fox forms. We never got the chance for much else, though, after her mother took her away and called me an "unsuitable friend." I haven't seen her since, or any fellow foxes for that matter
-What is the history of their relationship(s) with you?
Check what I just said and you'll know everything that's happened.
2) Do you currently have a best friend whom you would protect with your reputation or your life?
Um...not really, no. I wouldn't mind to find one of these, however.
-If so, who are they and what caused you to feel so close to them?
n/a
-What would have to happen for you to end this relationship?
n/a
3) Do you have any bitter enemies?
Yes.
-If so, who are they, what are they like, and what is the history of their feud with you?
The rabbits >.> All of them are out to get me, I swear. They nibble at any scraps I leave behind and in the winter time, any that stick around tend to eat anything there is for me to snack on and hide or run away before I get the chance to kill them for my meal instead...
-Have you defeated them before?
A few...but they multiply constantly.
-How might these enemies seek to discomfit you in the future?
I came across a rabbit demon once >.> If she knew how many of her kin I'd killed, she'd probably get her friend, the moose, to seek me out.
4) What valuable or important contacts do you have?
None, really.
-How did you come to know them?
n/a
5) Which person(s) or group(s) are you most loyal to?
None. I don't follow; I'm independent.
6) List any past serious relationships that you have had, and give a brief overview of the relationship(s).
None.
7) How do you think others generally perceive you?
Animalistic and a tad crazy, if human. Otherwise, just like any other creature of the wild.
8) If someone crossed your path, what would you do?
Eat them.
9) Who is your most trusted ally?
My staff.
10) Who do you trust, in general?
Myself.
11) Who do you despise and why?
The rabbits...they're out to get me!
12) Name seven things you hate in others.
A) High numbers...why do they all need to flock to one place? Why a need for that many of them all in one area?
B) Noisy. Why must you all be so loud?
C) Small. If you're below 4'5", you're not a "person", you're a snack.
D) Know-it-alls. You don't know it all, and the attitude that comes with the fact that you think you do is not attractive.
E) Sex-a-holics. I am one of the VERY few in my kind that doesn't only get together in mating season for giant orgies, etc. I actually respect myself...which is my major problem with my species.
F) Anything that refuses to leave me alone will end up eaten, or at least dead. I refuse to deal with it.
G) If you're a rabbit, I despise your very being.
13) Is your image consistent?
Yes.
14) Do people see you in similar ways?
Everyone has their own way of perceiving information, but it is not because I put it out in different ways...unless I'm trying to eat you...then you don't know who I really am.
15) Do you deliberately present yourself differently in different situations, and how?
If I'm hungry, I will eat you. If I'm not, I will either leave you be, or I might even talk to you if I'm that bored/interested.
16) What would you die for?
Nothing. It's do or die, and I refuse to willingly die.
17) For whom would you go to the extremes?
Nobody I've met thus far.
18) Who do you turn to when you're in trouble?
Myself.
19) What is the worst thing someone has done to you?
My friend's mother taking my friend away.
20) What are your general reactions to an attractive member of the opposite sex who lets you know they are available?
This question: What are you like? If he says anything in relation to sex, he's probably not the guy I'm looking for.
21) How do you get along with others in the same field and/or work environment?
I don't.
22) How can you be blackmailed, beaten, and tricked (by PCs or NPCs)?
Why would I put such information for all to read?
23) Have you lost any loves?
No. I've yet to understand this "love" emotion. I've talked to humans and other creatures about it, though, so I know little of it.
-How did you handle the situation (short and long term)?
n/a
24) Who would miss you, should you go missing?
Nobody, I think. I don't feel I was important to anyone other than my old Red Fox friend, and even then we weren't too close. I feel this can be a good thing, however, because then I have no regrets about who I'm leaving behind when I die.
25) Who might protect you?
Nobody.
26) Who might be convinced to sell you out?
Those damn rabbits
27) How close are you to your friends?
What friends? I have none.
28) What do they know about you?
n/a
29) What do they not know about you?
n/a
30) What do you know and not know about them?
n/a
31) Do you live with anyone (housemates, roommates, relatives, friends, near-strangers, family friend, spouse, boyfriend, girlfriend, lover)?
On my own, though the forest is filled with plenty of creatures.
32) Are you a member of any special interest groups?
No.
-What is your level of involvement?
n/a
33) What is your current status with local law-enforcement?
Two words: Wild. Animal.
34) Do you have a record of cooperation or non-cooperation with authorities?
No, but if someone just waltzed in and tried to reign supreme over my life, I sure would.
35) Do you have a file with local, national, or international law enforcement?
No.
WIP - Work in Progress.
Hungry, Crazy, and Evilly-Cute.
2) Do you have any nicknames, street names, titles, or aliases?
A nickname: Shi. It's not used to often, though.
3) What's your full birth name?
Ryshin, which means song. That's all lolz
4) Where do you live?
The fantasy universe, Lunias, on planet Zeronium. I don't live too close to the Lunias gang, but I do live in a forest on the edge of Konkato. It's called "Raa'nea'k Mea" or Trees of Malice.
5) Why do you live there?
Because it was where I was born and it's familiar to me. I like it.
6) What is your citizenship status?
O.o Hobo?
7) What is your most obvious blessing or strength?
My ability to eat things whole.
8) What do you perceive as your greatest strength?
My ability to transform and therefore deceive.
9) What is your most obvious flaw or weakness?
Gluttony XD
10) What do you perceive as your greatest weakness?
My physical strength
11) Was there any event or cause to cause these weaknesses?
No, not really. I just use magical abilities to gain what I want, and the thrill of the hunt just isn't for me, so I've never had much need for physical strength.
12) What would you like to be remembered for after your death?
Hmmm...Ashira's Notebook? I'm not really sure. I suppose I'd just like to be remembered whenever I die :3
13) What kind of threat do you present to the public?
The fact that I can eat 4 average-sized human men whole in one bite, not less, seems kinda threatening to me O.o
14) If your features were to be destroyed beyond recognition, is there any other way of identifying your body?
My staff would be next to me, no doubt. If that were to be stolen or destroyed, however, it would be my stomach...if there are half-digested cake remains within it, then it is most likely me.
15) How much is a pint of mead or ale?
What does this tell about me? O.o How much human things I drink? I do not drink human drinks...I only eat human desserts!
16) As a player, if you could, what advice would you give? Speak as if he/she were sitting right here in front of you. Use proper tone so they might heed your advice.
As a player of a game, or a player as in relationships? Games I can do, relationships I have no interest in.
PHYSICAL TRAITS
1) How old are you?
3 years old :3 My birthday is September 7th, 2009
2) What is your gender?
Female
3) What is your species/race?
A Tea'raa...in other words, 3-eyed, 9-tailed arctic fox demon...with lightning powers :3
4) How tall are you?
6'4" in my human-like form.
5) How much do you weigh?
How rude of you to ask >.>
6) What is your general body type, frame, bone structure, and poise?
Body Type: Between skinny and average.
Frame: I don't quite understand what you mean...
Bone Structure: That of a fox-human combo? O.o
Poise: I'm very balanced.
7) What is your skin color?
The color of what you humans call a white person
8) What is your hair color?
Pure white with icy blue tips
9) What is your hair style?
Mostly down with a small pony-tail towards the bottom to keep it from getting in my way. Bangs across my forehead and 3rd eye
10) Do you have any facial hair?
I have eyelashes and eyebrows...that is the extent of my facial hair.
11) What is your eye color?
Bright red.
12) Does it change?
No.
13) How attractive are you?
I'd say in either form I've pretty attractive...to my species anyway. I take it that humans typically don't have a thing for 3-eyed, 9-tailed anything.
14) What is your most distinguishing feature?
Probably my 3rd eye.
15) Do you have any scars, tattoos, or birthmarks?
No.
16) If so, how did you acquire them?
n/a
17) What do these distinguishing marks look like?
n/a
18) Do they have any special significance?
n/a
19) Where are they located?
n/a
20) What is your handedness (left/right)?
I'm ambidextrous.
21) Do you resemble some currently known person?
No...but I believe the 9-tailed fox thing would make one think of Naruto Uzamaki, sadly.
22) What is your hand size/description?
Um...I have paws O.o
23) Do you have a uniform?
No.
24) What kind of clothing do you wear?
Whatever I mange to make out of my prey's pelts. I especially love my poncho <3 style="text-align: center;">HISTORICAL QUESTIONS
1) Where is your homeland?
3 years old :3 My birthday is September 7th, 2009
2) What is your gender?
Female
3) What is your species/race?
A Tea'raa...in other words, 3-eyed, 9-tailed arctic fox demon...with lightning powers :3
4) How tall are you?
6'4" in my human-like form.
5) How much do you weigh?
How rude of you to ask >.>
6) What is your general body type, frame, bone structure, and poise?
Body Type: Between skinny and average.
Frame: I don't quite understand what you mean...
Bone Structure: That of a fox-human combo? O.o
Poise: I'm very balanced.
7) What is your skin color?
The color of what you humans call a white person
8) What is your hair color?
Pure white with icy blue tips
9) What is your hair style?
Mostly down with a small pony-tail towards the bottom to keep it from getting in my way. Bangs across my forehead and 3rd eye
10) Do you have any facial hair?
I have eyelashes and eyebrows...that is the extent of my facial hair.
11) What is your eye color?
Bright red.
12) Does it change?
No.
13) How attractive are you?
I'd say in either form I've pretty attractive...to my species anyway. I take it that humans typically don't have a thing for 3-eyed, 9-tailed anything.
14) What is your most distinguishing feature?
Probably my 3rd eye.
15) Do you have any scars, tattoos, or birthmarks?
No.
16) If so, how did you acquire them?
n/a
17) What do these distinguishing marks look like?
n/a
18) Do they have any special significance?
n/a
19) Where are they located?
n/a
20) What is your handedness (left/right)?
I'm ambidextrous.
21) Do you resemble some currently known person?
No...but I believe the 9-tailed fox thing would make one think of Naruto Uzamaki, sadly.
22) What is your hand size/description?
Um...I have paws O.o
23) Do you have a uniform?
No.
24) What kind of clothing do you wear?
Whatever I mange to make out of my prey's pelts. I especially love my poncho <3 style="text-align: center;">HISTORICAL QUESTIONS
Our people never formed a nation or even tribe of our own. We're typically loners. We travel plenty, abandon our young before they get to an age where they can remember us, and never formed a set place we came from. We descended from the Tea'r'naavss [wolf-cats] though, who come from the eastern Rylaan plains.
2) What are its people like?
Cruel and lonely, typically. We don't usually take well to strangers unless it is mating season.
3) Are you aware of its history?
Some. And that's only because I've once wandered into a village and asked a domesticated Tea'raa about where our people originated and he gave me the information I gave in the 1st question, as well as a tad bit more.
4) Are you patriotic or a social outcast?
I suppose I'm both, seeing as my people naturally are social outcasts X3
5) What is your opinion of home?
n/a
6) Where is your home town?
I have none. I just live in a den I've created for myself in the Raa'nea'k Mea
7) What is your home town's name?
n/a
8) What was the area like and how did it affect you?
Pretending this isn't referring to a town and is referring to my den...when I first moved there it was dirt and now there's a hole. It gave me shelter from the rain and enemies, a place to sleep, and overall a place I could call my own. It's saved my life from angry other demons before, and I like spending time there, though a human would probably find it very uncomfortable and dank.
9) Did you witness any historical events?
I may or may not have. It doesn't really matter much to me. The only ones that keep record of any history are united or civilized species or those who just personally wish to keep records of their own. I'm not one of either, so I haven't paid much attention.
10) If so, how did that event impact you?
n/a
11) Are your real motivations different from what you tell others?
Depends on who I'm talking to. I can be quite deceptive if I so desire.
-If so, how might such secrets be revealed?
You'd be eaten before you got the chance to find out :3
-How far would you go to keep such secrets from being revealed?
I'd eat you?
-What would you do if the truth became known?
I'd eat you! I already said this!
-What do you fear would occur if the truth became known?
Less filling meals O.o
12) Are you particularly graced (or cursed) with particular traits or skills?
The power of deception has gotten me many a meal.
-If so, were these a result of your past?
No, they're a survival skill.
-How have these affected your life so far?
By keeping me alive O.o
-Did you affect you in your chosen profession?
I have no profession, I'm simply surviving.
14) What about your race, growing up were you in the majority or a minority?
Minority X3
-How were you treated by other nearby races?
Fear. I either ate them/their kind, or I made a point to them to stay off my territory.
-Were you persecuted for your race?
I don't know about the whole of my kind, but me personally? No.
-Did this impact your outlook in any way?
n/a
-Did it affect your personality?
n/a
-How do you feel about other races?
Their only purpose is food, otherwise they are mere obstacles that need to be gone around or destroyed.
-Do you have any justification from your past experience for holding such views?
I tried to make friends as a very young demon and their either attempted to kill me and/or eat me, or they shooed me away and treated me as nothing but an annoyance. The only polite ones are in civilized societies, but I prefer to stay away from mass amounts of such people. I like being on my own a lot more.
14) Were there any traumatic experiences in your early years (death of a family member, abandonment, orphaned at an early age, etc.)?
I'd like to think waking up without a mother would have been devastating to me, but I don't remember it happening so I wouldn't know. Besides that, I've faced no real traumas. I've really just been on my own.
15) Briefly describe a defining moment in your childhood and how it influenced your life.
I remember when I was picking berries by the riverside and I saw a HUGE bear-like demon attacking this small little rabbit out of spite on the other side of the river. The rabbit must have done something to anger the bear, because the bear was just furious. I got a tad closer and began to watch. From there, it didn't take long for the bear to smash the little rabbit, so I went to take a look-see. I took a sniff and finding the smell fairly good, I took a bite, and from there I've been a mostly carnivorous omnivore.
16) What was childhood like for you?
Lonely and boring, to be brutally honest.
17) Was it calm and peaceful or turbulent and traumatic?
From what I remember of it, it was mostly peaceful with random moments of action. The action is well exaggerated in my memories, however, since I was so young. If I were to mention any of them, they'd be as boring as "I hunted my prey all through the forest and found it boring, then came up with the fantastic idea of using magic and proceeded to build a staff."
18) Did you have any childhood friends?
Me, myself, and I, really. I did used to play with a red-tailed fox child for a while before their mother decided I was an unsuitable friend and took her away.
-If so, who and where are they now?
I do not recall her name, but if I heard it I could tell you that's right. I don't know where she is now, though.
-Are you still close to them or have you grown apart?
If I met up with her again, we'd probably begin where we left off and quickly grow close, but because I have no idea of her location...well that puts a damper on our relationship X3
19) What stupid things did you do when you were younger?
I still do them now X3 I play with my food, practice magic, and like to get myself lost and find my way back to my den again. Once I got myself lost for a week straight before I came home to my den. Good thing I came home when I did too, for the next day a raccoon-squirrel demon came and attempted to make my territory it's own.
20) Which toys from your childhood have you kept?
My staff is the only thing I've kept from my childhood, and it's hardly a toy... it is quite fun, however, so I suppose under certain circumstances it would be a "toy" hehe
-What do they mean to you?
I don't think I could live without my staff. It means a lot to me, for starters, made my my hand and very strong and special. I use it for hunts, since I am not physically strong enough to hunt down and kill prey on my own. I have the speed - not the strength - to kill my now usual prey.
-If you didn't keep any, why not?
Because I have no need for mindless nick-nacks filling up my home when I have better things to concern myself with, such as survival.
-What did you do to them all?
Either ate them, practiced my magic on them, or threw them in the river.
21) Do you have any deep, dark secrets in the past that may come back to haunt you?
If I said anything, the wouldn't be secrets now, would they?
22) What conflicts might arise from your past?
If I ever came across my mother in the future, she'd probably try to kill me for being such an abomination.
23) Are you who you claim to be?
Depends on if I'm trying to eat your or not ;3
24) Do you have any sort of criminal record?
If I lived in a civilized society, I'd be considered a brutal killer, probably.
25) How do you view the heroes/legends of your country?
n/a
FAMILY RELATIONSHIPS
1) Who were your parents?
No clue.
2) Were you raised by them?
It is custom to leave your young to fend for themselves after a certain amount of months or so, so no, just like virtually all others of my kind.
3) If not, then why didn't they and who did raise you?
Myself. The rest of this question is answered within the previous one.
4) What is your father's full name?
n/a
5) What is your mother's full name?
n/a
6) What did your parents and/or foster parents do for a living?
Survive, probably.
7) What was their standing in the community?
n/a
8) Did your family stay in one area or move around a lot?
They probably moved because there are no others of my kind in this general area.
9) How did you get along with your parents?
Probably bad seeing as they left me...or maybe normal, since it's customary.
10) How would your parents describe you?
Abomination. It's how pretty much all of us view children as.
11) Do you have any siblings?
Not that I'm aware of, though I could somewhere far off.
12) If so how many and what were their names?
n/a
13) What was your birth position in the family?
I don't know.
14) How did you get along with each of your siblings?
n/a
15) What was your family life like?
Not a clue.
16) List all current knowledge of family locations, spouses, children, birth dates, schooling, and any important incidents that only you and they might remember.
n/a
17) Are any or all of your family still alive?
I'm not sure.
18) Draw out your family tree, including living and dead relatives
I don't know any besides myself.
19) Do you love or hate one member of the family in particular?
I don't really have anything for or against anyone in my family that I'm aware of, meaning my parents. They left me before I got the chance to judge them, and they left me because it is custom of our kind. Unless I have a child I have no right to judge that decision.
20)Is any member of the family special to you in any way (perhaps as a confidant, mentor, or arch-rival)?
No.
21) Are they any black (or white) sheep in the family (including you)?
I suppose that domesticated Tea'raa I came upon a while back, but who's to say he's even a part of my family?
-If so, who are they and how did they "gain" the position?
He's domesticated and not wild?
-If this person is not you, then how do you feel about them?
I don't quite care. It's his life, not mine, therefore I don't have much of a place to judge.
22) Do you have a notorious or celebrated ancestors?
Not really, no. I'd probably have heard about them by now if there was.
-If so, what did this person do to become famous or infamous?
n/a
-What do people assume about you once your ancestry is revealed?
Perhaps this could also mean "what do people assume about you one they learn your parents left you and your kind's history was revealed to you by a complete stranger?" If it can also be interpreted that way: They typically assume that I am unhappy with my position in life, though I quite enjoy things this way. More time for me.
23) Have you begun your own family?
Ha, no, not at all.
-If not, do you ever want to have a family of your own someday?
I don't plan on it for a long while if ever.
-If so, with who or what type of person?
n/a
24) What type of person would be your ideal mate?
Someone who won't abandon me despite the passing of mating season, and someone who doesn't mind that that's strange for our kind.
-What would you be willing to do to protect such a person?
Anything reasonable in the war of love. But I've yet to come across anyone like this who has even the least desire to be with me.
-Is there anything you wouldn't do to protect such a person and if so, what?
Anything absolutely ridiculously out there, such as put up with him hurting me, etc. I am not the type of woman to let someone walk all over me.
-Would anything change your mind on this issue and if so, what?
Maybe being exposed to love, finding a better understanding of this odd emotion, and realizing why some do as they do better. I don't know what my future holds for me.
PERSONAL RELATIONSHIPS
1) Do you have any close friends?
I did once, but I don't anymore.
-If so, who and what are they like?
Well she used to be really funny. We'd pull pranks together all the time, and she promised me once that she'd teach me how to ride a horse in both human-like and fox forms. We never got the chance for much else, though, after her mother took her away and called me an "unsuitable friend." I haven't seen her since, or any fellow foxes for that matter
-What is the history of their relationship(s) with you?
Check what I just said and you'll know everything that's happened.
2) Do you currently have a best friend whom you would protect with your reputation or your life?
Um...not really, no. I wouldn't mind to find one of these, however.
-If so, who are they and what caused you to feel so close to them?
n/a
-What would have to happen for you to end this relationship?
n/a
3) Do you have any bitter enemies?
Yes.
-If so, who are they, what are they like, and what is the history of their feud with you?
The rabbits >.> All of them are out to get me, I swear. They nibble at any scraps I leave behind and in the winter time, any that stick around tend to eat anything there is for me to snack on and hide or run away before I get the chance to kill them for my meal instead...
-Have you defeated them before?
A few...but they multiply constantly.
-How might these enemies seek to discomfit you in the future?
I came across a rabbit demon once >.> If she knew how many of her kin I'd killed, she'd probably get her friend, the moose, to seek me out.
4) What valuable or important contacts do you have?
None, really.
-How did you come to know them?
n/a
5) Which person(s) or group(s) are you most loyal to?
None. I don't follow; I'm independent.
6) List any past serious relationships that you have had, and give a brief overview of the relationship(s).
None.
7) How do you think others generally perceive you?
Animalistic and a tad crazy, if human. Otherwise, just like any other creature of the wild.
8) If someone crossed your path, what would you do?
Eat them.
9) Who is your most trusted ally?
My staff.
10) Who do you trust, in general?
Myself.
11) Who do you despise and why?
The rabbits...they're out to get me!
12) Name seven things you hate in others.
A) High numbers...why do they all need to flock to one place? Why a need for that many of them all in one area?
B) Noisy. Why must you all be so loud?
C) Small. If you're below 4'5", you're not a "person", you're a snack.
D) Know-it-alls. You don't know it all, and the attitude that comes with the fact that you think you do is not attractive.
E) Sex-a-holics. I am one of the VERY few in my kind that doesn't only get together in mating season for giant orgies, etc. I actually respect myself...which is my major problem with my species.
F) Anything that refuses to leave me alone will end up eaten, or at least dead. I refuse to deal with it.
G) If you're a rabbit, I despise your very being.
13) Is your image consistent?
Yes.
14) Do people see you in similar ways?
Everyone has their own way of perceiving information, but it is not because I put it out in different ways...unless I'm trying to eat you...then you don't know who I really am.
15) Do you deliberately present yourself differently in different situations, and how?
If I'm hungry, I will eat you. If I'm not, I will either leave you be, or I might even talk to you if I'm that bored/interested.
16) What would you die for?
Nothing. It's do or die, and I refuse to willingly die.
17) For whom would you go to the extremes?
Nobody I've met thus far.
18) Who do you turn to when you're in trouble?
Myself.
19) What is the worst thing someone has done to you?
My friend's mother taking my friend away.
20) What are your general reactions to an attractive member of the opposite sex who lets you know they are available?
This question: What are you like? If he says anything in relation to sex, he's probably not the guy I'm looking for.
21) How do you get along with others in the same field and/or work environment?
I don't.
22) How can you be blackmailed, beaten, and tricked (by PCs or NPCs)?
Why would I put such information for all to read?
23) Have you lost any loves?
No. I've yet to understand this "love" emotion. I've talked to humans and other creatures about it, though, so I know little of it.
-How did you handle the situation (short and long term)?
n/a
24) Who would miss you, should you go missing?
Nobody, I think. I don't feel I was important to anyone other than my old Red Fox friend, and even then we weren't too close. I feel this can be a good thing, however, because then I have no regrets about who I'm leaving behind when I die.
25) Who might protect you?
Nobody.
26) Who might be convinced to sell you out?
Those damn rabbits
27) How close are you to your friends?
What friends? I have none.
28) What do they know about you?
n/a
29) What do they not know about you?
n/a
30) What do you know and not know about them?
n/a
31) Do you live with anyone (housemates, roommates, relatives, friends, near-strangers, family friend, spouse, boyfriend, girlfriend, lover)?
On my own, though the forest is filled with plenty of creatures.
32) Are you a member of any special interest groups?
No.
-What is your level of involvement?
n/a
33) What is your current status with local law-enforcement?
Two words: Wild. Animal.
34) Do you have a record of cooperation or non-cooperation with authorities?
No, but if someone just waltzed in and tried to reign supreme over my life, I sure would.
35) Do you have a file with local, national, or international law enforcement?
No.
WIP - Work in Progress.
Wednesday, February 2, 2011
List
Just a list of super random shit that I felt like sharing X3
1. Complaining about family... [I only put this first because I feel the need to rant. Feel free to skip to #2 if you don't wanna hear it]
I've come to respect a lot of what my dad does and even have come to like parts of my mom over the past few years I used to hate since the day my my parents apologized for some serious, personal shit within my family, but Aubrey and my relationship has only gone downhill from that day as she's grown up. Some of the things she does just...just why do I even bother pretending to care? Because of the past, good things we've had? Those are in the past. She's growing up and becoming a completely different person, a person similar to the people I avoid at school, or hell, everywhere. When little things like a few minutes ago happen, it just gets on my last nerve and brings up these feelings all over again...
A few hours ago she came into my room and told me that our neighbor kid, Nick, wanted something to eat and that something was a bowl of ramen. I said "Ok, that's fine."
And she said back, "Can you help us? It says we need to boil water." I told her to put the water in the microwave for like 2 or 3 minutes and it'll be warm enough. So I went downstairs to get some water and this bowl of burnt noodles is just sitting on the counter. I asked what happened and why they didn't eat them or at least throw them away. She gets all bitchy with me and says, "Never tell me to put those in the microwave."
I put two and two together, I assumed she put the noodles in the microwave and said, "Um...Aubrey, I told you to put WATER in the microwave to boil it."
So she defensively says as if I had insulted her or something, "No, you told me to put THAT in the microwave," and points at the bowl of noodles.
Frustrated, I said back "No I think you just misunderstood me. I told you to put the WATER in the--" then I noticed an ALUMINUM packet of flavoring under the noodles with burn marks all over the corner especially. "Aubrey, THIS is what burned the noodles."
She gets REALLY bitchy and practically yells at me, "Well that's why you shoulda helped us." The attitude in her voice resonated in my mind, pissing me off all the more.
I responded, "Aubrey, I was in my room without pants on [it was morning and I'd just woken up]. I'm not gonna come downstairs pantless when--"
She then says with the little attitude similar to an attitude you'd have if you were saying "ah ha!" like she'd found me out or something: "You're highly capable of putting on some pants on, aren't you?"
My hand was shaking, I was so close to slapping that bitch straight across the face. By telling her I was trying to help the best way I could while both being respectful to HER guest and still getting the work I was doing done at that time, she was still displeased. If I didn't have Dre [my boyfriend's] voice in the back of my mind reminding me to keep my cool, shit would have gone down.
Battling myself mentally to keep my cool, I told her, "Aubrey, you just misunderstood me."
"No you said to put that in the microwave." God I hate her snarky attitude.
"I wouldn't tell you to do that!" I didn't yell, but I was getting pissed.
My dad then yells, "Girls, just stop repeating yourselves!"
So I said, "Alright. Aubrey, there are instructions right on the front of this. It doesn't say anywhere that it's microwaveable."
She then yells before I even get my last word fully out, "You should have helped us! Just leave it! It's over!"
"I know, but I'm only telling you so that you don't do something like this again and light our microwave on fire or some--"
"I didn't light it on fire, did I!? No. Exactly. So just stop it. It's over."
"Yes, Aubrey, I'm only saying--"
"You're only saying. Alright."
Oh my fucking GOD, this family is gonna drive me to DRINK.
2. Getting a tail
On a lighter note, I'm currently looking at tails...I really want a new one. I'm not sure what though. I would have bought that tiger tail from Clockwork Creatures a while back, but it was $60 and I just didn't have the money. Not only that, but my fursona has a fluffy tail, not a long, straight one like tigers really do, so...I dunno what to do.
I love tigers and wouldn't mind a tiger tail, but finding a good one and not some cheap, Halloween costume looking one is really hard and when you do they typically have high prices. So I've been looking at Raccoon tails, Fox tails, Coyote Tails... I'm still not sure which one I should get.
I've been trying to stick to real fur because it's soft and fluffy and I know if it's real I'll want to actually get the bang for my buck and use it a lot even well after I get a fursuit and what not. I'm also not looking for anything too unnatrual and distracting, like a purple or bright colored tail. Hmm... Well, I guess I'll look for a little while longer then. Hopefully something'll stick out at me.
She said this in response: "Buying the tail off of someone who you have no idea where the animal came from is using part of it, yeah, but you're also supporting that market. That market supports the slaughter of animals for profit. It's no better than buying a head and mounting it on your wall. Also, personally, I am against real tails in general. So asking me where to buy a real tail is not necessarily the best route to go. However, I CAN offer you the chance for a fake one that looks real, also customized to your fursona." I nodded at the window on my IM screen and figured that if she can show me some fake tails that don't look like a stupid Halloween costume as well as offer the argument against getting a real tail, that maybe I should consider. She continued, "But you're supporting the costumer, among other other things, and you're not helping the for-profit animal slaughter market. See what I mean?"
Yeah I do now :3 I thanked her for telling me that, otherwise I'd have probably just gone and bought one without realizing what I was actually promoting, which is why I'm putting this here for other people who may have not thought about that like me. Hehe I love Ses! Thanks a lot for letting me know :3
Well, I ended up getting pointed in the direction of yarn tails. Those look pretty realistic, and Ses even said they feel that way too. Looking around I didn't find too many places to buy one, so I officially decided I was gonna make my own using this tutorial.
I'll probably document my progress either on here or YouTube...or both X3 but I might not depending on how things go for me. Either way, I can't wait to get all the stuff to get started!
3. Fursuit [Clockwork Creatures or BeastCub style?]
I've officially decided I wanted a fursuit not too long ago. I've been looking at a lot of places, but Clockwork Creatures and BeastCub really stick out to me for some reason. I definitely don't want a toony suit, but I also want one that children would feel safe approaching. Then comes my other want of an elegant, beautiful suit that I doubt children would really wanna get close to, but I don't want it to come off as angry/look angry either. So basically I'm at this choice: Realistic, or Semi-Realistic? If I were to get a Realistic suit, it would definitely come from Clockwork Creatures [or somewhere with the same, theatrical and realistic style], and if I were to get a semi-realistic suit I'd most likely get it from BeastCub.
I'll post pictures once I actually get the chance to draw them/get them drawn for me [lolz just having serious difficulties drawing her] of my fursona, but if I were to explain her at the most extreme basics ever, she'd be a Shadow Tiger-Fox. I've yet to name her, but I'm considering Toxin or Toxic because, you know Tiger...Fox...Tox...in...yeah lolz I'm lame. But like I said, she's not officially named so yeah X3 Continuing on: She's essentially a black tiger with fox qualities. She's a black tiger with pointy ears, white stripes that fade to crimson at the tips, a fluffy tail with a crimson-that-fades-out-to-white tip, and her back-right paw is crimson as well. I want to add a few details from there, like horns [specifics unknown], markings [probably in a neon blue color, but I'm still thinking it through], scars [dunno about this though cuz she's got stripes, ya know?], and a light on her tail [possibly; not official]. She sounds a bit ridiculous right now, but that's cuz she's in the process of being made lolz so don't laugh at me!
Anyway... In this video is represented the level of realism in the semi-realistic look I'd kinda be going for, and in this video is represented the level of realism in the realistic look I'd be going for. Hopefully I'll be figuring more out with this soon >.<
4. Valentine's Dinner O.o
Dre invited me to a Valentine's Dinner thing with his family, said he'd be getting the details to me soon, but...I'm nervous >.< Ohmigawd I'm so nervous...
3. YouTube videos and deviantART
I really have been meaning to work on more YT videos and art, but time just seems to escape from me so easily. Hm...I think I'll make a video of a poem or something so that everyone knows I'm not dead XD Be sure to check for that on my YT channel. While you're at it, watch the video I've featured on there as well. I'm trying to raise awareness about Coyote-Fox closures.
As far as art goes, I did post a cute picture of Ses and I in animal forms on my DA page. Check it out - it's sooooo adorable :3
6. Writer's Cafe
7. Giga Pudding
My new obsession...sorta. You see, when I was up writing Moral Values [a play for school that you can read on my page at Writer's Cafe], I ended up SO tired that I managed to find this and I was addicted. It's like a damn drug, I swear... Don't believe me? I found all this too:
This, this, this, this, this, this creepy shit, and that O.o> Giga Puddi challenge that I didn't beat and highly doubt you could either.
I told my friend, Emily, about it and she said "...is it bad that I kinda wanna try it?" and I was like "It looks like nothing but sugary and fattening...but I wanna try it too..." and so she looked it up...
FTW!?!? $32 DOLLARS!?!? No. Not happening. I know it's 20 servings, but really? I just wanted the one bite, and if it was good, like 1 serving, maybe...oh and 1 for Emily X3
So she was like "Yeah, let's just make our own bucket of pudding," and the moment I said yes the Giga Pudding obsession mostly ended XD
8. The legal age limit should be changed to like 16 or 17...
...but no lower, because there's a lot of dumb-ass 15-year-olds out there, believe me...
Yeah that's all I had to say about that XD
9. Random Shit from my Gaia Online Profile...
This is all the words on my Gaia Online Profile, just in case anyone was interested in reading. This way is a LOT neater than with all the pictures getting in the way, etc. ...I think I should re-do that profile soon here O.o...
My rant on anime...
日本製アニメの常習者 anime addict
I love anime (duh) and just Japan itself. I'm currently learning Japanese (very very slowly...and I'm a noob so don't try to talk to me. I most likely will have next to no idea what you're saying XP) and watching my anime in its original Japanese sure helps. Here's some of my favorite anime (if yew care...which you prolly don't but
it's here anyway =3=):
1. One of my older favorites would be Hell Girl. I got into it when I was about a year into my anime phase and it just never left me. I'm still working on finishing it - both manga and anime - but I will soon enough.
2. Another thing I love is Final Fantasy. Though I can't quite call myself a hardcore fan yet, I've recently gotten the original FF and FF II on my wii and intend on beating those games and working my way up. It'll also help me save a bit of money on the more recently released games, cuz by the time I'll be buying them it'll be when they've gone down in prices from like $50 to around $20 or $30 at my local gamestop.
3. Now due to my love of FF, I also fell in love with Kingdom Hearts. I'm currently working on the DS game, but the PS2 games - KH and KH2 - are beat ^-^ I have a real soft spot for Axel, but I have a love of the Roxas and Axel pairing as well ^-^ Not to mention the Sora and Riku one too ;3
4. on YT... Seriously, watch it.Now I know not everyone is a yaoi/yuri fan, but I love Junjou Romantica. I cannot wait for the 3rd season to come out (God I hope they make it) and would be working on the manga if my parents actually knew I watched it X3 I plan to pick up volume one when I'm 18 and workin on movin out, which might not be so bad cuz I'll prolly know Japanese pretty well by then and can get a Japanese copy instead of the English ones. 'til then, though, waiting is hard...lolz
5. There are other anime I really like, like Yu Yu Hakusho, InuYasha, Naruto (even though it's outrageously long O.o), Rosario plus Vampire, Blood plus, Blood: The Last Vampire, Death Note, Soul Eater, Fullmetal Alchemist (workin' on the Brotherhood series X3 awesome), and many more.
6. But above all anime, I'd have to say that Loveless is my current favorite, and has been for quite a while. Soubi is my complete and total favorite anime character EVER and Seimei is very intriguing. I dunno why, but I'm just hitched. I own and have finished the whole anime series a few times on my own, 3 times with friends and am now working on the manga. I own up to #8 in English, and plan to own Japanese copies the moment I feel I can speak (and of course read) Japanese well enough. I can't wait to get a LIFE SIZED poster of Soubi so I can tell all my friends I stalk a 2-dimensional character and see if they question my sanity XD
A Little About Me
My name is Ashira, Ashira Saide Cartel. Here's a little bit about myself...
I'm still on a spiritual journey to discover if any other religion strikes me as MORE true, but until then I associate myself with Wicca, therefore I am a Wiccan - a witch-in-training. And I'm quite proud of it (what other reason would I have to put it up here?). But because I don't want a crap load of comments saying "So do you worship Satan?" because no. I don't. That's a Satanist my dear friend, and just because I'm working on being a witch, does not mean I'm a satanic witch. Got it? Good.
Also, I like angels. No, not because "mama Silver" (Silver RavenWolf, for the unfamiliar) told me to, I just like them. That liking is completely un-related to my religion.
Now something that is sorta related to my religion is my liking to the color black. Now I've liked black before I figured out I was a Wiccan, or even a Neo-pagan at all, but when I learned that it supposedly wards off negative energy, I became very proud it. I wear black every day, and if I don't have any black I at least have black nail polish. You can call me Hana (from Fruit's Basket) if it really suit's your fancy, but no - I don't have any electric wave powers...whatever that is...
Also, my favorite animal is a Tiger. Why do I say that? It's also my spirit guide...well sorta. It's more of a combo of many animals all on a tiger body, so mainly tiger, but other stuff too. I'd call it a griffin if I had to put a name on it, but I guess it could be something completely different too *shrugs* I'll let you call it what you wish. Here's a little description if you'd like to put a face on it. His name...well I've yet to name him. If you have any suggestions, lemme know ^-^
Start out with a basic, male Bengal Tiger (the orange one, dimwit). To start off, make it's fangs huge - like a saber-tooth tiger would have. Now give it Grey Wolf feet, and a much fluffier, light grey underside, kinda like a Grey Wolf would have. This underside counts everything from the underside of the bottom jaw to the underside of it's tail (so it has a half wolf, half tiger tail...like an orange, black-striped wolf tail). On top of that, add two large horns. These horns look like the horns in this picture. Lastly, give it one extremely large Raven wing (left) and the other a large dragon/bat wing (right). They look exactly like the ones in this picture only black. They just so happen to even be in the right places ^-^
That's my spirit animal. How do I know? He came to me in a dream and watches over me as I sleep. He's mainly a tiger, so when my dreams with him are in the real world and not my mental-getaway (my "happy place" for the simple-minded), that's all he is - a Bengal Tiger. I'll prolly get Emmah, Sheoiga, or Ses to draw a picture of him when we get the chance...
If you haven't noticed already with all the words like...EVERYWHERE, I wanna be a writer when I grow up ^-^
If you read parts of my stories and learn more about my other work, then check out my website, Ashira's Notebook:
http://www.ashirasnotebook.webs.com/
If you're wondering about the nearby picture of dragons and such, it's my incubator. On it are my dragon eggs, hatchlings, and dragons. If you have a couple more seconds to spare, it'd be awesome if you could go and click on them. You see, they need views, unique views, and clicks in order to survive. So go here to click on them:
http://dragcave.net/user/AshiraCartel
I won't put the whole thing about which yaoi couples I like best and what not right now, but maybe later lolz XD
10. Ashira's Notebook.
I've really been lacking in keeping up with that O.o ...I'ma go fix that RIGHT NOW. *goes to my website, stares at the screen for a few moments, looks at the clock - 3:22 AM* ...is it really worth it to work on this right now...?
...........*fixes a couple things then gets right back to my blog*
Yep, so I made a ton of changes. You should go to my 'site and check it out RIGHT. NOW. I mean, it is so huge that if you don't check it out soon your brains will explode of overload of information once I update it again, it's just that much of a change...and this joke stopped being funny when I said "tons of changes" so I'm gonna just shut up now and get some sleep :D NIGHT!!!
Random End Comment: "I'm currently in love with stuffed animals. I've decided I can never be too old to love them." <-- and it's comments like that that help me realize why I'm friends with the people I'm friends with XD I love ya Emily!
1. Complaining about family... [I only put this first because I feel the need to rant. Feel free to skip to #2 if you don't wanna hear it]
I've come to respect a lot of what my dad does and even have come to like parts of my mom over the past few years I used to hate since the day my my parents apologized for some serious, personal shit within my family, but Aubrey and my relationship has only gone downhill from that day as she's grown up. Some of the things she does just...just why do I even bother pretending to care? Because of the past, good things we've had? Those are in the past. She's growing up and becoming a completely different person, a person similar to the people I avoid at school, or hell, everywhere. When little things like a few minutes ago happen, it just gets on my last nerve and brings up these feelings all over again...
A few hours ago she came into my room and told me that our neighbor kid, Nick, wanted something to eat and that something was a bowl of ramen. I said "Ok, that's fine."
And she said back, "Can you help us? It says we need to boil water." I told her to put the water in the microwave for like 2 or 3 minutes and it'll be warm enough. So I went downstairs to get some water and this bowl of burnt noodles is just sitting on the counter. I asked what happened and why they didn't eat them or at least throw them away. She gets all bitchy with me and says, "Never tell me to put those in the microwave."
I put two and two together, I assumed she put the noodles in the microwave and said, "Um...Aubrey, I told you to put WATER in the microwave to boil it."
So she defensively says as if I had insulted her or something, "No, you told me to put THAT in the microwave," and points at the bowl of noodles.
Frustrated, I said back "No I think you just misunderstood me. I told you to put the WATER in the--" then I noticed an ALUMINUM packet of flavoring under the noodles with burn marks all over the corner especially. "Aubrey, THIS is what burned the noodles."
She gets REALLY bitchy and practically yells at me, "Well that's why you shoulda helped us." The attitude in her voice resonated in my mind, pissing me off all the more.
I responded, "Aubrey, I was in my room without pants on [it was morning and I'd just woken up]. I'm not gonna come downstairs pantless when--"
She then says with the little attitude similar to an attitude you'd have if you were saying "ah ha!" like she'd found me out or something: "You're highly capable of putting on some pants on, aren't you?"
My hand was shaking, I was so close to slapping that bitch straight across the face. By telling her I was trying to help the best way I could while both being respectful to HER guest and still getting the work I was doing done at that time, she was still displeased. If I didn't have Dre [my boyfriend's] voice in the back of my mind reminding me to keep my cool, shit would have gone down.
Battling myself mentally to keep my cool, I told her, "Aubrey, you just misunderstood me."
"No you said to put that in the microwave." God I hate her snarky attitude.
"I wouldn't tell you to do that!" I didn't yell, but I was getting pissed.
My dad then yells, "Girls, just stop repeating yourselves!"
So I said, "Alright. Aubrey, there are instructions right on the front of this. It doesn't say anywhere that it's microwaveable."
She then yells before I even get my last word fully out, "You should have helped us! Just leave it! It's over!"
"I know, but I'm only telling you so that you don't do something like this again and light our microwave on fire or some--"
"I didn't light it on fire, did I!? No. Exactly. So just stop it. It's over."
"Yes, Aubrey, I'm only saying--"
"You're only saying. Alright."
Oh my fucking GOD, this family is gonna drive me to DRINK.
2. Getting a tail
On a lighter note, I'm currently looking at tails...I really want a new one. I'm not sure what though. I would have bought that tiger tail from Clockwork Creatures a while back, but it was $60 and I just didn't have the money. Not only that, but my fursona has a fluffy tail, not a long, straight one like tigers really do, so...I dunno what to do.
I love tigers and wouldn't mind a tiger tail, but finding a good one and not some cheap, Halloween costume looking one is really hard and when you do they typically have high prices. So I've been looking at Raccoon tails, Fox tails, Coyote Tails... I'm still not sure which one I should get.
I've been trying to stick to real fur because it's soft and fluffy and I know if it's real I'll want to actually get the bang for my buck and use it a lot even well after I get a fursuit and what not. I'm also not looking for anything too unnatrual and distracting, like a purple or bright colored tail. Hmm... Well, I guess I'll look for a little while longer then. Hopefully something'll stick out at me.
--at a later time, after looking at tails for a little while longer--
So I talked to my big sister, Sesaya, and she convinced me not to get a real tail by saying what she did. I asked her, "Why do you say not to get a real one? Cuz I just figure if I can get a real tail and use part of the animal, that's better then letting it go to waste."She said this in response: "Buying the tail off of someone who you have no idea where the animal came from is using part of it, yeah, but you're also supporting that market. That market supports the slaughter of animals for profit. It's no better than buying a head and mounting it on your wall. Also, personally, I am against real tails in general. So asking me where to buy a real tail is not necessarily the best route to go. However, I CAN offer you the chance for a fake one that looks real, also customized to your fursona." I nodded at the window on my IM screen and figured that if she can show me some fake tails that don't look like a stupid Halloween costume as well as offer the argument against getting a real tail, that maybe I should consider. She continued, "But you're supporting the costumer, among other other things, and you're not helping the for-profit animal slaughter market. See what I mean?"
Yeah I do now :3 I thanked her for telling me that, otherwise I'd have probably just gone and bought one without realizing what I was actually promoting, which is why I'm putting this here for other people who may have not thought about that like me. Hehe I love Ses! Thanks a lot for letting me know :3
Well, I ended up getting pointed in the direction of yarn tails. Those look pretty realistic, and Ses even said they feel that way too. Looking around I didn't find too many places to buy one, so I officially decided I was gonna make my own using this tutorial.
I'll probably document my progress either on here or YouTube...or both X3 but I might not depending on how things go for me. Either way, I can't wait to get all the stuff to get started!
3. Fursuit [Clockwork Creatures or BeastCub style?]
I've officially decided I wanted a fursuit not too long ago. I've been looking at a lot of places, but Clockwork Creatures and BeastCub really stick out to me for some reason. I definitely don't want a toony suit, but I also want one that children would feel safe approaching. Then comes my other want of an elegant, beautiful suit that I doubt children would really wanna get close to, but I don't want it to come off as angry/look angry either. So basically I'm at this choice: Realistic, or Semi-Realistic? If I were to get a Realistic suit, it would definitely come from Clockwork Creatures [or somewhere with the same, theatrical and realistic style], and if I were to get a semi-realistic suit I'd most likely get it from BeastCub.
I'll post pictures once I actually get the chance to draw them/get them drawn for me [lolz just having serious difficulties drawing her] of my fursona, but if I were to explain her at the most extreme basics ever, she'd be a Shadow Tiger-Fox. I've yet to name her, but I'm considering Toxin or Toxic because, you know Tiger...Fox...Tox...in...yeah lolz I'm lame. But like I said, she's not officially named so yeah X3 Continuing on: She's essentially a black tiger with fox qualities. She's a black tiger with pointy ears, white stripes that fade to crimson at the tips, a fluffy tail with a crimson-that-fades-out-to-white tip, and her back-right paw is crimson as well. I want to add a few details from there, like horns [specifics unknown], markings [probably in a neon blue color, but I'm still thinking it through], scars [dunno about this though cuz she's got stripes, ya know?], and a light on her tail [possibly; not official]. She sounds a bit ridiculous right now, but that's cuz she's in the process of being made lolz so don't laugh at me!
Anyway... In this video is represented the level of realism in the semi-realistic look I'd kinda be going for, and in this video is represented the level of realism in the realistic look I'd be going for. Hopefully I'll be figuring more out with this soon >.<
4. Valentine's Dinner O.o
Dre invited me to a Valentine's Dinner thing with his family, said he'd be getting the details to me soon, but...I'm nervous >.< Ohmigawd I'm so nervous...
3. YouTube videos and deviantART
I really have been meaning to work on more YT videos and art, but time just seems to escape from me so easily. Hm...I think I'll make a video of a poem or something so that everyone knows I'm not dead XD Be sure to check for that on my YT channel. While you're at it, watch the video I've featured on there as well. I'm trying to raise awareness about Coyote-Fox closures.
As far as art goes, I did post a cute picture of Ses and I in animal forms on my DA page. Check it out - it's sooooo adorable :3
6. Writer's Cafe
I figured that because I haven't really announced it all that much on my website or anything that I am now also on Writer's Cafe. That might make reading my work a little easier for some, but just so you know I'll be writing erotica on there too. Those will always be marked as such so that un-interested folk can just skip right along to the clean stuff...but yeah. Just thought I'd tell you that some poetry goes up on there, school projects...stuff like that that I haven't posted to my website. Check it out some time: Writer's Cafe.
7. Giga Pudding
My new obsession...sorta. You see, when I was up writing Moral Values [a play for school that you can read on my page at Writer's Cafe], I ended up SO tired that I managed to find this and I was addicted. It's like a damn drug, I swear... Don't believe me? I found all this too:
This, this, this, this, this, this creepy shit, and that O.o> Giga Puddi challenge that I didn't beat and highly doubt you could either.
I told my friend, Emily, about it and she said "...is it bad that I kinda wanna try it?" and I was like "It looks like nothing but sugary and fattening...but I wanna try it too..." and so she looked it up...
FTW!?!? $32 DOLLARS!?!? No. Not happening. I know it's 20 servings, but really? I just wanted the one bite, and if it was good, like 1 serving, maybe...oh and 1 for Emily X3
So she was like "Yeah, let's just make our own bucket of pudding," and the moment I said yes the Giga Pudding obsession mostly ended XD
8. The legal age limit should be changed to like 16 or 17...
...but no lower, because there's a lot of dumb-ass 15-year-olds out there, believe me...
Yeah that's all I had to say about that XD
9. Random Shit from my Gaia Online Profile...
This is all the words on my Gaia Online Profile, just in case anyone was interested in reading. This way is a LOT neater than with all the pictures getting in the way, etc. ...I think I should re-do that profile soon here O.o...
My rant on anime...
日本製アニメの常習者 anime addict
I love anime (duh) and just Japan itself. I'm currently learning Japanese (very very slowly...and I'm a noob so don't try to talk to me. I most likely will have next to no idea what you're saying XP) and watching my anime in its original Japanese sure helps. Here's some of my favorite anime (if yew care...which you prolly don't but
it's here anyway =3=):
1. One of my older favorites would be Hell Girl. I got into it when I was about a year into my anime phase and it just never left me. I'm still working on finishing it - both manga and anime - but I will soon enough.
2. Another thing I love is Final Fantasy. Though I can't quite call myself a hardcore fan yet, I've recently gotten the original FF and FF II on my wii and intend on beating those games and working my way up. It'll also help me save a bit of money on the more recently released games, cuz by the time I'll be buying them it'll be when they've gone down in prices from like $50 to around $20 or $30 at my local gamestop.
3. Now due to my love of FF, I also fell in love with Kingdom Hearts. I'm currently working on the DS game, but the PS2 games - KH and KH2 - are beat ^-^ I have a real soft spot for Axel, but I have a love of the Roxas and Axel pairing as well ^-^ Not to mention the Sora and Riku one too ;3
4. on YT... Seriously, watch it.Now I know not everyone is a yaoi/yuri fan, but I love Junjou Romantica. I cannot wait for the 3rd season to come out (God I hope they make it) and would be working on the manga if my parents actually knew I watched it X3 I plan to pick up volume one when I'm 18 and workin on movin out, which might not be so bad cuz I'll prolly know Japanese pretty well by then and can get a Japanese copy instead of the English ones. 'til then, though, waiting is hard...lolz
5. There are other anime I really like, like Yu Yu Hakusho, InuYasha, Naruto (even though it's outrageously long O.o), Rosario plus Vampire, Blood plus, Blood: The Last Vampire, Death Note, Soul Eater, Fullmetal Alchemist (workin' on the Brotherhood series X3 awesome), and many more.
6. But above all anime, I'd have to say that Loveless is my current favorite, and has been for quite a while. Soubi is my complete and total favorite anime character EVER and Seimei is very intriguing. I dunno why, but I'm just hitched. I own and have finished the whole anime series a few times on my own, 3 times with friends and am now working on the manga. I own up to #8 in English, and plan to own Japanese copies the moment I feel I can speak (and of course read) Japanese well enough. I can't wait to get a LIFE SIZED poster of Soubi so I can tell all my friends I stalk a 2-dimensional character and see if they question my sanity XD
A Little About Me
My name is Ashira, Ashira Saide Cartel. Here's a little bit about myself...
I'm still on a spiritual journey to discover if any other religion strikes me as MORE true, but until then I associate myself with Wicca, therefore I am a Wiccan - a witch-in-training. And I'm quite proud of it (what other reason would I have to put it up here?). But because I don't want a crap load of comments saying "So do you worship Satan?" because no. I don't. That's a Satanist my dear friend, and just because I'm working on being a witch, does not mean I'm a satanic witch. Got it? Good.
Also, I like angels. No, not because "mama Silver" (Silver RavenWolf, for the unfamiliar) told me to, I just like them. That liking is completely un-related to my religion.
Now something that is sorta related to my religion is my liking to the color black. Now I've liked black before I figured out I was a Wiccan, or even a Neo-pagan at all, but when I learned that it supposedly wards off negative energy, I became very proud it. I wear black every day, and if I don't have any black I at least have black nail polish. You can call me Hana (from Fruit's Basket) if it really suit's your fancy, but no - I don't have any electric wave powers...whatever that is...
Also, my favorite animal is a Tiger. Why do I say that? It's also my spirit guide...well sorta. It's more of a combo of many animals all on a tiger body, so mainly tiger, but other stuff too. I'd call it a griffin if I had to put a name on it, but I guess it could be something completely different too *shrugs* I'll let you call it what you wish. Here's a little description if you'd like to put a face on it. His name...well I've yet to name him. If you have any suggestions, lemme know ^-^
Start out with a basic, male Bengal Tiger (the orange one, dimwit). To start off, make it's fangs huge - like a saber-tooth tiger would have. Now give it Grey Wolf feet, and a much fluffier, light grey underside, kinda like a Grey Wolf would have. This underside counts everything from the underside of the bottom jaw to the underside of it's tail (so it has a half wolf, half tiger tail...like an orange, black-striped wolf tail). On top of that, add two large horns. These horns look like the horns in this picture. Lastly, give it one extremely large Raven wing (left) and the other a large dragon/bat wing (right). They look exactly like the ones in this picture only black. They just so happen to even be in the right places ^-^
That's my spirit animal. How do I know? He came to me in a dream and watches over me as I sleep. He's mainly a tiger, so when my dreams with him are in the real world and not my mental-getaway (my "happy place" for the simple-minded), that's all he is - a Bengal Tiger. I'll prolly get Emmah, Sheoiga, or Ses to draw a picture of him when we get the chance...
If you haven't noticed already with all the words like...EVERYWHERE, I wanna be a writer when I grow up ^-^
If you read parts of my stories and learn more about my other work, then check out my website, Ashira's Notebook:
http://www.ashirasnotebook.webs.com/
If you're wondering about the nearby picture of dragons and such, it's my incubator. On it are my dragon eggs, hatchlings, and dragons. If you have a couple more seconds to spare, it'd be awesome if you could go and click on them. You see, they need views, unique views, and clicks in order to survive. So go here to click on them:
http://dragcave.net/user/AshiraCartel
I won't put the whole thing about which yaoi couples I like best and what not right now, but maybe later lolz XD
10. Ashira's Notebook.
I've really been lacking in keeping up with that O.o ...I'ma go fix that RIGHT NOW. *goes to my website, stares at the screen for a few moments, looks at the clock - 3:22 AM* ...is it really worth it to work on this right now...?
...........*fixes a couple things then gets right back to my blog*
Yep, so I made a ton of changes. You should go to my 'site and check it out RIGHT. NOW. I mean, it is so huge that if you don't check it out soon your brains will explode of overload of information once I update it again, it's just that much of a change...and this joke stopped being funny when I said "tons of changes" so I'm gonna just shut up now and get some sleep :D NIGHT!!!
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Random Music of the moment: The Smore God's Song. LISTEN TO IT AND BE CONVERTED!!!Random End Comment: "I'm currently in love with stuffed animals. I've decided I can never be too old to love them." <-- and it's comments like that that help me realize why I'm friends with the people I'm friends with XD I love ya Emily!
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