Knite? I dunno

I found this artist on DA that is just BEAST that I love so much. They're name is yuumei, and they do these Flash Comics that just make me feel so inferior as a fellow artist and writer *whines, then looks at with admiration* Read yuumei's flash comics, 1000 words and Knite, to understand wtf I'm talking about.

I have a random idea...I wanna sell commissions. I dunno if I should though because it might be difficult. I think I'll start out by just giving commissions to my friends and family for a pretty cheap price, and then selling prints to the people out there in the world outside :3 lolz

I've been feeling really artistic lately, but haven't really been drawing anything. Everything I draw just looks like shit compared to what I've got in my head, and I keep looking at all the really good artists [like yuumei, and my friends Sheioga and Sesaya], and just feeling the "I'm not as good as them" feeling. I don't wanna give up, I just wish I had the same skill... Some motivation on the side would also be nice XP

I have a piece in mind...I wanna draw these three people, Kaiine, Raa, and Vern, all wearing masquerade masks. Vern is in the middle, Kaiine is on the left and Raa is on the right. Kaiine is falling backwards and reaching out her hand to Raa, while Raa is being held back by two other people - Cartel and Saide. Vern is sitting on a table, looking sad into a tea cup she's holding...or maybe a lily...I dunno. The background is a bit hard to explain because explaining it you probably can't see it like I can...still, the background would be Kaiine falling into darkness so that whole half would be warped and dark. The part where Vern is, there is a table [in which she's sitting on] and the floor is checkerboard. The wall is a bright red and there's a clock on the wall right above Vern's head. Raa's background is just an introverted version of Vern's.

Don't ask me what that picture means, I have no idea XD It's just a picture I thought of one night before going to bed.

Here's another idea I had... I'd title it "Waiting for My Romeo" and again it would be Kaiine, Raa, and Vern. Kaiine would be out on the balcony and Raa would be kneeling down at the bottom, both of them reaching for each other. Vern would be in the room leading to the balcony with a very sad look and a tear rolling down her cheek.

That one is really sad...but I like the idea nonetheless and probably will end up doing it before abstract idea #1 up there *points*

I also want to do something with Sandra and Alex... Something like them in an alleyway from the same angle as this amazing-and-way-above-my-skill-level picture and maybe have Alex writing in a journal or reading something while Sandra does the whole "he loves me...he loves me not..." thing to a flower.

Goddamnit I wish I could paint these...or at least photoshop them as well as AyametheDevil and markcrilley

I think I'm going to do a speed-draw video or something tomorrow or the next day of one of these pieces...I dunno...hopefully I can without interruption as well *shrugs* We'll see

OHMAIGAWD. I'm SO gonna do this sometime soon for the random hell of it O.O "She's...What...? Meme" ...moving on...

But yeah...I've got a little more complicated ideas that I've had before, and I really wanna get to work on that kind of stuff. You know, the kind of stuff that would make a pretty poster. Then I can sell those, make some money, get a heat press, and sell T-shirts too :D Hopefully I can really get to work on this over the summer, but for now I'll try to work weekends.

To be honest, I'm going to try to avoid spending time with my friends these next few months and just focus on me. I'm not trying to sound anti-social nor egotistical or anything, just...meh, thoughtful. I've been working really hard on art and my website and stuff for a while now and I'm trying to make it feel worth it. Nobody really looks at it though, and pretty much nobody is willing to buy because of that so I guess I gotta put a little more effort into it. I dunno if that'll make a difference or not, but hopefully it will.

Also, looking at these comics and things is kinda inspiring to me. I really wanna write the script for a comic and maybe make it, but I dunno if I have the time and patience for that...I don't exactly have the skill, which effects my time and patience heh. I guess I could do it my way, though. *shrugs* I'm still thinking. If I were to do a comic, it'd be pretty abstract, pretty weird, and I'm not absolutely sure if it'd make total sense... why? Because first of all, backgrounds are hard for me. I don't want to get to work on a comic and realize "Fsck, I gotta draw their bedroom too..." so I wanna do something where backgrounds aren't really necessary. Also, I'm thinking maybe I should just making Riaru Mugen into a comic. I really don't know right now though...it's 3:30 in the morning and I might just be rambling...

Oi...I just want to start making some money. I want to save up for my big dreams as well as have something to start with when I turn 18 and want out. I also want some damn gas money, and some money for a car so that I can drive it without my parents threatening to take the keys cuz of my poor grades...

Meh.......I just have a lot on my mind right now I guess... I think I'll make a seperate blog post for that part though so...see you soon?

Random End Art: This piece of Sen from Knite is just so pretty :3 I'm considering buying the poster with the other Knite poster, Between Today and Tomorrow. If you like Knite, maybe you should too. You can buy the first piece here and the second one here.
Random Music of the Moment: This is a tune that was made for the 1000 words flash comic. It's really cute "I think I love you more than the Japanese love tentacle porn..." X3
Random End Note: My drama teacher showed me this...freakin' hilarious X3 Oh and BTW I got Pokemon White... I like SoulSilver more and the pokemon aren't that fantastic, but the graphics are pretty kick ass.