I've been thinking a lot about my future lately, been talking to a lot of people, been trying to just figure everything out, and I've come to the obvious realization... this stuff is complicated.
To narrow it down, I've given myself a time limit and certain subjects to be concerned about. Specifically, I'm trying to think of where I want to be in my life about two years from now, and how I want to acomplish those goals. Two of my main goals for that time is to have a car and an appartment. Two years is NOT a lotta time for those huge financial ventures in a time where I'm gonna be thinking about and going to college as well...but I'm hoping I'll make it nonetheless.
I want to have a car first, then I'll focus on the appartment. The appartment is important to have before Rue comes home so him and I can move in together as soon as he's back [for anyone who's confused, Rue is going to Utah for Job Corps for two years some time this month, latest of November, and that's where I get my 2-year-time-limit thing]. I'm hoping I'll get an appartment some time around 6 months after I turn 18. In other words...I needa car before I turn 18 [so I drive to the job that I'll somehow have], and I'm not sure how I'll be getting it... beg for a mega awesome super birthday present? Haha I wish.
Moving on though: I'll be doing online school over this upcoming summer, graduating a semester early, and having a job that I magically get in between there so that I can save for a Christmas vacation I'm planning on taking next year [Can't wait to see you Ses! :3] and more. From there on it's nothing but save, save, save for a car unless my parents ever so kindly lend me some money to get one...in that case it'd be a lot of paying off this loan and much less saving. Anyhoo... regardless of how it all specifically goes down, I need a car and an appartment soon after I get a job, and the car I might need before [depending on where my job is].
Another thing on my list is college... What I want to do is go to Front Range [nearby community college] and save some money, then later on when I've gone there for my freshman and sophmore years, I assume I'll have a much better idea of where I specifically wanna go plus what I wanna major and minor in, so that's as far as my college ideas go. I am excited to experience college though! I want to graduate cuz I'm sick of high school, and I'm ready for something new. Something I know that thus far isn't a dying interest is art school, and the possiblity of becoming a tattoo artist. If I don't pursue that, I just might become an editor, a director, or something totally different that'll come to me later in life.
Other than that I have few other plans... I know I'll be moving in with my friend Emily, I'm working on books and figuring out things so that I can get myself a bit better known [cuz I wanna be able to publish a book in a few years...it'd be nice], and to make the next big step in my relationship when Rue gets back [in other words, move in with him].
I wanna enjoy my life in the meantime and not concern myself too much with my work ethic or my future or all those stressful things until Rue is in Utah and I have more time to myself to think about those things anyway. I'm excited to move forward in life, but until things really start moving I'm not going to think much about it all - it's draining me to be honest. It's funny though to think of that, cuz this time 2 years ago I was stressing out about how my plans for the future were falling apart, and not reaching the standards I was hoping for. I was frustrated that I had open spots in my plans, and I was angry that I had my life planned out perfectly up until I turned 30 and then it all went to shit. Now, however, I'm happy that there's blank spots. I'm still planning, but I'm also planning to plan, if that makes sense. I know well enough that I'll be spending my time in the future enjoying things, learning more, understanding certain things in my life better, and maturing, and once I hit a time where I can more clearly and speicifically fill in the blanks, I'll begin to. Until then I'm going to take my time, enjoy life for what it's worth, and just be happy that I'm not concerned about every little puzzle peice being in it's specific, right place. Who would want to stress themselves out that much?
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Hello. I'm Ashira, Ashira Saide Cartel. You may know me from my other websites - Ashira's Notebook and Ashira's Store - but this is a totally different place [obviously].
I get bored with my life and have many plans. I try to keep people updated as best as I can, but that's kinda hard. I like ranting, I'll admit that, and sometimes talking about my website just doesn't happen. I don't like a diary because it either just gets really personal and I don't know what to do with it, or more likely than not I wanna share it with too many people and it's not that personal anymore.
As a solution, I first thought I'd try working on an Autobiography...sorta...but there was a lot in it that I just didn't like and didn't want to mention. There was also the fact that most of the book wasn't something I was up to selling, and overall it was just too much work that I wasn't willing to do. So I eventually ended up just quitting it...but I still thought, "What should I do...?" I didn't want to use my time making a whole 'nother website all for the purpose of randomly ranting, so after watching a video on YouTube from user MasakoX, I figured "Eh...alright, I'll give it a go" and here I am...on blogger. I'm also on tumblr if you're more into the short, random crap that's on my mind. I used to put this stuff under my main blog posts as Random Song of the Moment, Random Artwork of the Moment, etc.
I get bored with my life and have many plans. I try to keep people updated as best as I can, but that's kinda hard. I like ranting, I'll admit that, and sometimes talking about my website just doesn't happen. I don't like a diary because it either just gets really personal and I don't know what to do with it, or more likely than not I wanna share it with too many people and it's not that personal anymore.
As a solution, I first thought I'd try working on an Autobiography...sorta...but there was a lot in it that I just didn't like and didn't want to mention. There was also the fact that most of the book wasn't something I was up to selling, and overall it was just too much work that I wasn't willing to do. So I eventually ended up just quitting it...but I still thought, "What should I do...?" I didn't want to use my time making a whole 'nother website all for the purpose of randomly ranting, so after watching a video on YouTube from user MasakoX, I figured "Eh...alright, I'll give it a go" and here I am...on blogger. I'm also on tumblr if you're more into the short, random crap that's on my mind. I used to put this stuff under my main blog posts as Random Song of the Moment, Random Artwork of the Moment, etc.
I do wanna note a few things to any random visitors, however... first of all, this place is quite different than Ashira's Notebook. I don't censor myself quite so much [therefore I curse/swear, I talk about touchy subjects, etc.]. Secondly, I tend to talk about completely unrelated things from artwork. The things I discuss here usually are just general updates geared towards friends and family interested in what I'm doing with my life, as well as fans looking for a more personal side of the artist behind the artwork.
If you're hoping to get an inside scoop on my current projects, I will occasionally put things about them, but usually I'll write about random crap. In that case, I suggest you look at the News section on Ashira's Notebook more often and maybe checking out the Forums. If you're looking for examples of my written work, again I share some things on here, but the majority of my work is on my Writer's Cafe.
All that in mind, I hope enjoy your stay at Ashira's Home.
~Ashira
All that in mind, I hope enjoy your stay at Ashira's Home.
~Ashira
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