Regret or early Senioritis?

I've always told myself that regret does nothing more than hold me back in life, and ever since I learned that I've held to it. I still do have a problem, however, and I'm not sure if it's regret that I'm feeling about it, or if it's something else related to teenage anxiety or something or another.

What I feel is that I was born too late, that I missed a year of life that I could have gotten by just being born just a few mere months earlier than I was. Usually when given the genie scenario I say "making a wish with a genie is like making a deal with the devil - it's bound to go wrong." However if I was given the opportunity to make a wish, I'd wish that I was born early enough to be in my senior year right now without it upsetting the balance and outcome of my life at this very moment. Specifically, I wish that I could have been born around the time my cousin James was born, the time where I would be in my senior year right now, and yet even through the change of my age, it wouldn't upset my happiness, my family, my maturity, my relationship, nor my friends...but it wouldn't change their ages either. It's a lot to ask for, really, but because I'm not haggling with a genie right now I'm going to make my wish as specific as I want to. If I have to dumb it down for your sake, however, I would just wish that I felt like I was the right age.

Personally, if I were to put an age on myself [based on my personal beliefs as well as outside perspectives], I would honestly put myself at 18. I don't feel at all like I'm the same maturity level of 99.9% of the Junior population in the Adams County school district [cuz it's really all I know in the masses], but I know I'm not knowledgeable or experienced enough, despite my maturity, to be older than a very early adult. I know very, VERY few people my age or younger who I think are my level of maturity or beyond, and I am setting my standards for maturity low. They're too complex to go into right now, but I can assure you that by asking for a mature person I'm not asking for much.

For some reason, I wanted to end this post with "I realize regret isn't worth the trouble and will do nothing more than hold me back, yet I will always have one regret: Being born too late." Thing is, that's not how I feel. I'm happy where I am in my life and what the near future is bringing for me, I just want my near future to be what I wake up tomorrow and get to work on. I'm anxious to get started with my life, and I feel like I'm being left behind by the ones I care most for. I'm getting some great advice from them all, I'm appreciative of the ability to gain the knowledge without going through the tough experiences, but I'm unable to put it into practice and I hate that so much. My life seems to be backed up while all of my friends are getting a head start on important life goals. It almost makes me wish I'd tried harder to graduate early...almost.

I don't exactly know what I'm trying to say besides my feelings, and when it comes down to the point all I have to say is I want to speed up time and be at the end of this miserable school year already. I want to get started on my summer job so I can save money to see Ses and get a fursuit, I want to be talking apartments more seriously with Kay Kay and Rue, and I want my driver's license so I can stop feeling like I'm treating my friends like my chauffeurs. That's all I want, and I can wait for the rest. I won't ask to graduate high school now, or to already be living with Kay Kay and Rue. I'll wait for the really important stuff. Until then, though, I just want for the next few months to feel like they're serving a purpose beyond teaching me patience. I just want to feel like I'm not waiting for more waiting.

I just want to get started with my life already. That's all I want.